~MoO MoO~: October 2005

Monday, October 31, 2005

Saw a lot of things that made me wonder what the world is coming to.

1) Bombings in New Delhi

Yet ANOTHER silly terrorist attack. How many more will there be? Every single day you pick up the newspapers and i assure u, at least one of the headlines is about terrorism.

2) The 3 girls from Indonesia who got killed on their way to school

One of the incidents that i feel most strongly about. Please forgive me for the language i'm about to use. What the fuck were those men thinking about? They were 3 innocent little girls on their way to school. What in the world did they ever do to you? Did they try to castrate you? Something i really feel like doing (don't be shocked. Yeesh has always been violent k? Especially to lousy guys) Humiliate you? If not then WHY THE HELL DID YOU, 6 STRONG HEALTHY MEN, HAVE TO ATTACK 3 DEFENCELESS GIRLS? I guess i'm reacting this way because i myself and my younger sister both belong to missionary schools. I simply cannot understand. What is wrong with attending a Christian school? It's not as if these girls were taught the wrong things in school. You guys even cut their heads off!!! What did they do to deserve this? They are afterall just young girls. Young girls just like my younger sister and her friends.

3) Mother in China cuts off ears of her own daughter

This mother is one sick lady i assure you. She ambushed her daughter when the young girl was sleeping and cut her ears off. She even ate those ears. I nearly punked when i saw that. How can anyone do that? To her own flesh and blood. Or even to anyone at all? Yucks.

After seeing all these, i can't help it but wonder what this world is coming to. So many sick bastards and crazy fellas. I'm really thankful to God. I'm really glad He chose to let me live in Singapore and gave me such a wonderful family. At least i don't have to worry about my sister or me being decapitated on the streets just because we are from some school that is associated to a particular religion. I also don't have to worry about my mum doing crazy things like eating my ears. I'm pretty sure she won't do that. The most terrible ambush she can ever set up is to come into my room and scream and tell me that i'm late for school when it's actually still very early. Well, she can go ahead and do that if she thinks it's funny. Afterall, all that can happen is that i will jump (literally) out of bed and then maybe step on my sister who sleeps beside me. My ears will still be safe and sound.

YYY

Sunday, October 30, 2005

My blog is worth $1,129.08.
How much is your blog worth?

YYY

At my uncle's house now... just finished my work for the day. Cleared a sociology report. I can't afford to be slack for sociology anymore. Nearly flunked one exam... that's more than enuff man. Anyway, just before i started doing my work, my little cousin who is 4 this year called me into her room.
Here's our conversation:
Shimone:"Why aren't you sleeping ah shan jie jie?"

Me:"I will sleep later. I have to do some work. Once i'm done i will sleep k?"

Shimone:"But why? I want you to sleep now, not later. Can't you do it tomorrow? Tomorrow's a sunday."

Me:"Nope. I promised my friend that i will pass my work to her by today. And... i have something on tomorrow morning."

Shimone:"But if you don't sleep now, how can u wake up tomorrow to do what you have to do? You have to sleep a lot you know? If not, then how you do anything? Tomorrow no nap for you also..."

My cousin's 4 this year. And she knows about the importance of sleep more than i do. Hahha... i seriously didn't know how to answer her question. This kid is starting to come up with more and more difficult questions for me to answer. Hahaha... but she's still as adorable as ever. Still curls herself up when she sleeps. And guess what? Her parents bought her a bedroom set with a pull out bed so that next time i come and stay over, i can sleep with her. Then, she won't have to tuck me into bed first before she goes to bed. Hhahah...

YYY

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses
Diamond rings
Dreams for sale
And fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It'll fool you every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

Now I was a once a fool it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin
And I keep on fallin
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

(The trouble with love is the) trouble with love
(It can tear you up inside) it can tear you up inside
(Make your heart believe a lie) Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
(The trouble with love is) It's in your heart it's in your soul
(It doesn't care how fast you fall) You're losing all control
(And you can't refuse the call)
So you've got no say at all
The trouble with love is nothing (Oooo….ya)
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie (the trouble with love)

I really should stop surfing online and reading lyrics in my sociology class. But then, i seriously couldn't resist the temptation... Oh well, it was not time wasted. It's not everyday that u find a song with lyrics that describes EXACTLY what u feel... I'm kinda glad i found it.

YYY

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Today has been a bloody bad day. Haiz... okok... before I start whining, let's start from the very beginning.

I was supposed to wake up at 645 today to clear my finance report then go down to SCS to meet Lacy... Unfortunately, the lazy worm in Yishan told her to forget it, just stay home and sleep till 10am. And so, that was exactly what she did. Damnit. Haven't I just said yesterday that I will not be lazy again? Anyway, that's really a very small matter. After 10am, I got up then left to go school, met Huixia to study and everything was running absolutely fine. I even had a good chat with Sheen.

So why was today a mad day u might ask then. Oh well, yeah... everything was fine. Until someone came and annoyed me then everything took a bad turn. I was just trying to teach her some stuff can? If she already knew then just say she already knew. Did she have to ask if I thought she was stupid? I didn't mean it that way. Did she have to say that? I was just trying to be nice what. Was that a sin?

Then after that, I messaged a friend to whine. He took damn long to reply then after the 2^nd message, he stopped replying. Guys and their bloody imaginary, in built walkman that appears once they don't wanna hear a girl whine. Bloody hell...

As if that was not enough, I had to get onto a bus only to realize that I didn't top up my ez link card and so, I had to pay in coins...coins that I have not been accumulating for a very long time... now, I don't even wanna recall what happened on the bus. First, the bus moved so bloody slow that I think if a snail moved beside it, the snail might have won the race!!! Wow~~~ interesting right? Snail win race leh!!! Cool hor? I think a new world record has been created!!! I know I'm damn sarcastic. U dun hafta tell me that. Oh well, how else was I supposed to react? I was already late for tuition!!!

Of course, if the bus journey was only plain slow I won't be whining so much. Afterall, I've had my fair share of slow buses in this life. What happened after that was that a mad woman got onto the bus a little while later and she started talking to herself. Seriously, on a lousy day like this, the last thing u need is to see someone who has been driven mad by stress. To make things even more marvelous for me, she had to end up sitting beside me.

As my bus journey came to its end and my darling slow slow bus finally approached my destination, I was kinda relieved to know that finally I will be getting down and away from a lousy trip. Then, I saw this lady carrying a young baby getting onto the bus just about 2 bus stops away from where I was going to get off. So I got up from my seat and wanted to offer her my seat. And guess what? From God knows where, a lady appeared from the back and snatched the seat. Kaoz... if she was short of an arm or a leg or pregnant or carrying a baby, I won't mind. But, she was a perfectly ok, healthy, "no-need-seat" person!!! Can she be more polite? Will she die standing for a little while longer? The other lady needed the seat more larh...

Haiz... I wonder what the hell is wrong today? Everything seems to be wrong. Even when I tried to be nice and do something good, it didn't turn out the way I wanted it to. Oh well, forget it. I will just find someone to whine to later online...(oh... a side note. I'm typing this while having tuition with my cousin. A cousin who is overly dependent on me)

YYY

Monday, October 24, 2005

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.Max Ehrmann
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

- Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952 -

"stolen" from my babe's blog

I really wanna be able to do what has been advised here. But how can i not compare? Arghhh... I can't help myself but compare other people to me. It has already made me into a vain and bitter person already. Why is it that people can have what they have just like that?
For me, i don't ask for much. I only want someone to whine to when i've had a lousy day, someone to give me a hug when i get the jitters before my presenations, someone to talk to me when i'm not in the mood to do work and someone to give me a morning call just to make sure that i don't oversleep. And so, why so tough? What the hell is wrong? (see? told u guys i was a bitter woman)
As for being at peace with God, i seriously wish i can. I dunno what is wrong with me but i can't seem to be able to commit myself to going for service every sunday. Sometimes, i blame it on the lazy worm living in Yeesh. Other times, i blame it on my parents or i will use excuses like i cannot make myself give up on some stuff i have been taught since young.
Haiz... my brain not really working today. Will continue talking about this entry when my brains come back to me.

YYY

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Haiz... sometimes i find her really adorable but sometimes, i really cannot help it but wanna kill her. She did 17 slides for juz her part!!! Can she please stop it? This is the second presentation already... And we already told her last time that we only have 30 mins. Seriously, you don't have enuff time for so many slides... Why can't she get it? I'm the one compiling and i'm seriously damn pek chek now. I really wanna cut the number of slides she has but i can't do that cos i dunno how it will affect her. She's gotta start understanding that by talking more, prof won't give her more marks... Okok... i dunno about this prof, he has been very irritatingly ambiguous about what he expects. But then the project presentation should really be about quality. You should summarize it!!! No one in the class wants to hear you talk 15 min about something they are not interested in. Leave more time for Q and A. That's the time u interact with the class and show them how much u know about your case. Haiz... whatever. I bet tmr's rehearsal time will be spent on letting her shorten her speech and cut down on slides.
Haiz... another thing i wanna whine about. My thumb got this tiny little cut and it's swollen... So pain. =( But sadly, there's no one i can whine to about such small things. Can u imagine me calling a fren and start whining about such tiny things? Haiz... it's times like these that makes me wish that i'm back with LT somehow... Well, he has his uses u know? Nono, WZ, not just sex, entertainment and physical labour. He can make me not wanna complain about such small things because half the time he ain't listening. He is also really good at making me work hard. This term, i'm slacking like my dad's gonna be able to help me BUY a degree... It's terrible ain't it? I figure that i will be getting pretty lousy grades this term. When i think about how slack i've become, i start wondering if it's actually better that i don't get over him? Oh well, i will think more... I will be more depressed but that keeps my brain working!!! I think that will make me less of an airhead then.
Why airhead and not bimbo u might wonder... Oh... that's easy to answer. Cos i'm not even pretty enough to qualify as a bimbo. A friend asked me the other day: "Yishan, do u ever feel inferior?" My answer? Definitely. In fact, i feel that pretty often. Just that i dun really show it. I always wonder why some of my friends look so good, feel so confident, are so smart, so popular. I know that i myself is not too shabby. I get my fair share of attention, brains and confidence. But why can't i have more? Haiz...i guess that's the thing about human beings... we cant never truly be satisfied with what we have.

YYY

Thursday, October 20, 2005

In a very good mood today even though i only slept at 5am. Ahahah... I think i'm a bit crazy. I actually feel good that i have so much work to clear.
Of cos, besides that, there are other reasons. But then me not gonna say what... My blog has been discovered by too many people already... secrets are no longer safe. Hahaha...so ppl, when u guys leave taggies, be careful k? Don't leak my secrets out. =P
On a side note, Mr Steve Kong, u will NEVER EVER be able to get any secrets out from this blog. Wahhahas... i will rather change blog than to let u read it. =P

YYY

Monday, October 17, 2005

I myself have always found it difficult to treat anything too seriously and I believe the world would be a better place if everyone followed my example.
- Roald Dahl (My Uncle Oswald p.134)

Hahha... yeah. The world really needs more people who are not as serious.

YYY

adopt your own virtual pet!

Hahha... u guys got it correct. Yeesh got herself another new pet!!! And of cos, since it's a piggy, it had to be named after her favourite pig right? Too bad they didn't have a spider. If they had, then i would get a Charlotte to accompany my dearest Wilbur. Anyway, i know what you guys are thinking. Oh no no~ Don't look at me with those accusing eyes. I won't neglect my pets!!! Hahaha... The posts with Hammy Ham Ham and Ducky Wacky are now linked to my blog so i can go visit them as and when i miss them. I do visit them at least once a week k? In fact, i just went to give Ducky Wacky more bread and made him quack a little. Hahah... i also made Hammy Ham Ham run on the wheel and tried to make him dizzy! Hahhah... hope they had fun. =)
Btw, just in case you guys wonder what's so cute about Wilbur, oh well, he can ROLL IN MUD!!! Hahhaha...and after he gets dirty, you can get water to clean him up and also feed him an apple!!! Hope you guys like my new pet. Don't bully my pets k? If you guys made Wilbur roll in mud, please clean him up k? And if I catch anyone of you bullying them then i will make sure i whack you the next time i see you around. =P

YYY

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Just as she thought that there was a glimmer of hope, it disappeared! It was gone again! And it left her totally lost and wondering why...

Wondering why the people she loves can't love her back
Wondering why she can't love the people who love her
Wondering why it seems so hard to love someone
Wondering why she still tries even though it's so hard
Wondering why she is so persistent in finding one she truly loves
Wondering why she still believes that the most fortunate kinda relationship is one whereby it's mutual
Wondering why her heart aches but doesn't wanna die
Wondering why she allows her heart to get injured in the first place then expects it to just die when it hurts
Wondering why she is unsuccessful in getting God to send her some signs, the signs He sent to other people
Wondering why she has to turn to religion for some things even though she knows that there is some sort of a fallacy in what they preach
Wondering why he does what he does
Wondering why he didn't reply
Wondering why he bothered to "test water" - cos she was the one he wanted or cos no one else wanted him
Wondering why she sits here now, blogging when she should be doing her data entry work
Wondering why she is awake at 245am, blogging about a guy who is most probably sleeping and not dreaming of her

YYY

Friday, October 14, 2005

Dear Yeesh,
Here is your single's love horoscope
for Thursday, October 13:

If you're involved in a tug-of-war -- with a romantic prospect or within your own heart -- consult the wise ones. No, not the authors of the self-help book of the moment; rather, your friends and loved ones.

Dear Yeesh,
Here is your single's love horoscope
for Friday, October 14:

You're the patient, warmhearted, reliable one, always with a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. Well, your friends have those attributes too, and they won't think less of you if you utilize them now.

Hmmm... why my horoscope nowadays all seem to indicate that i will need advice from friends? Especially when i am finally bathing in happiness... It is cos the happiness is just an illusion? I'm scared... not cos of the horoscope prediction but cos i seriously believe that happiness don't come so easily... i oso know that God always likes to make me go through a little more than i'm comforatble with.

YYY

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Take a look around, this is what I see
Is there anybody else that feels like me, yeah
You sweat, you sweat, you bleed, you bleed
What you get ain't what you see
Up is down and black is white to me

I'm complicated, I get frustrated
Right or wrong, love or hate it
I'm complicated, you can't sedate it
I heard that song but I won't play it
It's alright, it's OK, you wouldn't want me any other way
Momma, keep on praying cause I ain't changin'
I'm complicated, yeah
I'm complicated, yeah

I'm smart enough to know what I don't know
I'm fool enough to stay when I should go
You work, you work, you cry, you cry
You watch your whole life pass you by
Sometimes you've got to close your eyes to see

I'm complicated, I get frustrated
Right or wrong, love or hate it
I'm complicated, you can't sedate it
Heard that song but I won't play it
It's alright, it's OK, you wouldn't want me any other way
Momma, keep on praying cause I ain't changin'
I'm complicated, yeah
I'm complicated, yeah

Is there anybody out there?
Just like everybody out there
Just one somebody out there, Just like me

I'm complicated, I get frustrated
Right or wrong, love or hate it
I'm complicated, you can't sedate it
I heard that song but I won't play it
It's alright, it's okay, you wouldn't want me any other way
Momma, keep on praying, 멵ause I ain't changin'
I'm complicated, I get frustrated
Right or wrong, love or hate it
I'm complicated, you can't sedate it
Heard that song but I won't play it

Is there anybody out there?
Just like everybody out there
Just one somebody out there
Just like me
Is there anybody out there
Just like everybody out there
Just one somebody out there
Just like me
I'm complicated

hahha... Wish i could be juzt as defiant as this dude in the song. Sometimes, i think i lack a particular character. I let others define who i am. I dunno if it's cos i don't really have a mind of my own or is it that the way they lead their lives is how i wanna lead mine too. Or could it be possible that i dun really know how i wanna lead my life? So i see how people lead theirs and blindly follow?
Hmmm... interesting.

YYY

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Hhha... Yishan and her impulse shopping day.
1) $60 on lisa ono concert ticket
2) $48 on 2 pairs of shoes
3) $13 on a topshop top
4) $23 on a dinner she knew she won't be able to finish

I feel so broke now... hahah... and i still want
1) my red spects -$120
2) a new shirt -$60
3) another pair of new shoes - $40
4) a new HP -$300+?

hahah... how how? No income then spend so much... -ouch-

YYY

Sunday, October 09, 2005

That's All Lyrics -- Michael Buble

I can only give you love that lasts forever,
And a promise to be near each time you call.
And the only heart I own
For you and you alone
That's all,
That's all

I can only give you country walks in springtime
And a hand to hold when leaves begin to fall;
And a love whose burning light
Will warm the winter night
That's all,
That's all.

There are those I am sure who have told you,
They would give you the world for a toy.
All I have are these arms to enfold you,
And a love time can never destroy.

If you're wondering what I'm asking in return, dear,
You'll be glad to know that my demands are small.
Say it's me that you'll adore,
For now and evermore
That's all,
That's all.

If you're wondering what I'm asking in return, dear,
You'll be glad to know that my demands are small.
Say it's me that you'll adore,
For now and evermore
That's all,
That's all.

Haiz... when will anyone ever sing this song for me?

YYY

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

YYY

Found from my dearie Char's blog:

I hope somehow there'll always be
A little of that child in me:
That soft sweet innocence of eye
As clear as ocean, blue as sky...
That eager reaching out of hands
To all I meet who would be friends,
And that I'll be sincere and trust
With childlike faith that all are just.
My life from worry will be free:
To happines I'll hold the key;
And every day from morn till night
Be filled with wonder and delight.
And though the years may come and go,
My heart will never older grow......

yeah!!! That's the way to go. NEVER grow up. Once u do, u face so many more challenges, problems etc etc. Haiz... i wished i was Peter Pan sometimes. Hahahhaa... when i said this today, scared my freshie. He never thought about how life would be after he has to start working. I made him realise dat it was gonna be BAD. =P

YYY

Click on the image to see a bigger pic =)
A very interesting comic strip i found on my dearie's blog. Hahhah... Sometimes even i hafta agree. Ryan has been trying to get me to be more realistic. Don't shut so many ppl out. But then again, like what sharon said, it's the things we can't get that will continue to tempt us. =)
I know that i should be more realistic but then i don't wanna hafta settle for a lousy dude either. Don't wanna lower my standards again and meet guys like you-noe-who.

YYY